- Why are these thoughts in my head?
- February 23rd, 2011
I've been having really disturbing thoughts lately.
Like extreme self doubt. I'm being really lazy, so I feel like dropping classes. I'm being very cynical.
My mind even drifted to suicide last night. Not that I'm really unhappy with my life, it's just a way to get out. I had to snap myself out of it after like a 5 minute drift off.
That's really fucked up. Killing myself is the last thing I want. There's so many things I want to experience in life before I make my exit.
At least all of this is good writing material. And I've wanted to write lately more than usual... maybe after I do so some work on this shitty assignment?